The one thing I've noticed since trying to do a little yoga on Saturday is that I am extremely, extremely tense in the shoulder area. We did a few stretches for shoulders/back, and besides feeling awkward, I noticed how tight I am from the neck to the shoulder blades. Which made me feel even more awkward, because those places just don't want to stretch at all. When I sit down now I feel like there's a steel bar sewn into my shirt. I guess it's good that I'm more aware this week. Now, if only I could shake it out.
I'm sure this probably says something about my life. I went to church alone on Sunday, and naturally people asked "where's Otto?" I tried to explain that for just one morning I wanted a break from battling with him about getting dressed and brushing his teeth. And it was great to sit quietly for an hour without a monkey hanging off my arm, hip or leg. At work we're in the midst of our annual audit and I'm still waiting for a start date for our remodeling project. At home, only .5 of my 2.5 bathrooms is clean and I have 4 loads of laundry to do to finally get caught up (I hope).
I'm used to being on top of things (or at least I used to be used to being on top of things), and for me that's been the hardest adjustment in this whole parenting thing. I'm no longer organized. I no longer know where things are. I'm never caught up on laundry and the house is never really clean. And that chaos spills over into all the other parts of my life -- work, relationships, everywhere. Like I lost a vital part of my brain. And I want that part of my brain back!
For now, I think I'm going to have to settle for trying to work the kinks out of my upper back.
Reading: 8 Entirely New Ideas About Love
Buying: Lightening McQueen Pull-Ups
Wondering: which blue for our bedroom?