I should know better by now.
The NYTimes today had this scary article about overweight pregnancies. I had to read it, of course - and it freaked me out.
Then Jon came home to get ready for his overnight to Ohio, and he made me feel better. He reminded me that our docs have said everything's ok, and no one's given us dire warnings. I eat pretty good most of the time, we walk, and I'm relatively healthy. Of course my weight is bad, but I'm also 32, and waiting a couple more years for me to lose weight (assuming I could) isn't necessarily the right thing either.
So, I'm swearing off further articles. The only thing I allow myself to read right now is "What to expect when you're expecting" - Amanda loaned me her copy, and I feel better knowing that it helped her while carrying Liam. And see how good they turned out?
Hah! DSL is back! Once Jon gets home we can hook up the wireless stuff. Life is better...
I renewed my ALA membership today (or rejoined, more properly). I begged off the full fee since I'm unemployed, so it was only $75 instead of nearly $150. It'll be nice to get American Libraries and PLA again - I'll feel more like a real librarian. Lately I've been feeling imaginary. Saturday at FHPL I nearly asked someone in the reference stacks if I could help her - she looked lost, and I think my mouth was open before I realized what I was doing. Strange feeling to have autopilot take over like that.
No word from my last interview, and she was going to contact people by Friday. Sigh. I was really hoping for that one - again, getting my hopes up. Ah well... the right thing will come along eventually. I hope.
I'm hiding in the bedroom with Extreme Makeover on TV. Jon's got the living room - he's been playing Hitman again on the PS/2.
Today we went to Royal Oak for lunch. It's sort of a mini-Madison. Main St. reminds me a lot of State St. We ate at Pronto!, a cute little deli/restaurant that's hugely popular and trendy. Our 19-year old waitress was wearing huge streaks of blue eyeshadow under her long, sweeping bangs, and was too busy being disaffected to care that she got my order wrong. It also took at least an hour to get our meals. Still, we sat outside at the bistro tables and read and chatted and enjoyed ourselves. Then we walked around and looked at all the fun stores. Mom called and told me she bought Ten Big Ones - Stephanie rides again!
We drove around for awhile looking at neighborhoods, too. Jon's energy for this is pretty inexhaustable. I'm usually ready to go home after 30 minutes, comatose after 45. I'm not really looking forward to the official house hunt. You'd think it would be fun, right? But it's not. It's a big decision, spending a huge amount of money wisely. And you have to look at other people's furniture and wallpaper choices and try to imagine your own stuff there instead.
It's better than apartments, though, don't get me wrong.
La lala lala. Weather this week has been unreal - gorgeously sunny, highs in the 70s, so cool at night that we need the duvet. I ripped through cleaning the kitchen this morning and actually organized some of the things we've just been dumping onto shelves. If I'm not careful, all this nesting energy will go to my head! I'll start wearing an apron and make things in my Crock-Pot...
We went to the midwife this afternoon and got to hear Hambone's heartbeat - nice and clear and steady at 160 bpm, as is normal. I was pretty excited. Jon's comment was "I'm scared!" I couldn't see his face, so I'm not sure what he really thought at the moment. He liked Trish though, and I think we'll be happy doing the midwife thing. So far so good!
I'm emailing my resume for the director position, and we'll see what happens. Looks like my long vacation will let us drive to Iowa for 4th of July, which would be nice. I wonder if I could swing a plane ticket to Denver to see my new niece/nephew in July or August? Hmmm...
Hope you have a great weekend. We're going to go do something (not sure what yet), but maybe I'll check out the local farmer's market. I told Michel I'll bring potato salad if we come for the holiday, and that requires good stuff from the market. :^)
I love libraries.
I love 'em so much I miss work. Not just Elkhorn and my fun staff there, but WORK. Coming to the library, hanging at the reference desk, collection development, kids with wierd questions, little old ladies looking for Christian fiction. Sigh.
Today I'm working on WLA stuff, so I'm camped out at a table in the reference stacks at Farmington Hills PL. They let me plug into their network here, which is awesome 'cause we still don't have DSL working at home. Grr. There's also less distraction (no laundry, dog walking, vacuuming, dishes, etc.). I feel more at home here than I have anywhere else so far.
I received the nicest email today. I applied for an adult services position at Highland PL, and she sent me a great rejection letter (honestly, the nicest I've ever seen). Then she emailed me today encouraging me to apply to be the director at Manchester District Library. I think I will - it'd require commuting for us both, and it's full-time, but I feel the need to be seen, so to speak. There's not much happening around here, that's for sure. And I'm getting antsy to start work again so I have time to get settled before Hambone comes along and makes things crazy.
I also kind of worry that I'm so bossy and nosy that part-time wouldn't work for me for long. Sure, it'd be nice - but I like being involved, and so far part-time positions feel kind of ancillary. Do I want that? I don't know. I don't know I don't know I don't know...
One of the things I've always loved about my mom is the fact that she loves her work, too. And she worked full-time for 99% of my childhood. I never felt that was a bad thing, and I don't worry about Hambone being neglected. He'll have a full-time dad for one, which I didn't always. I just don't want to be spread so thin that we can't enjoy being new parents, or enjoy having a little kid and going to storytimes or play groups or whatever. Travel, friends, hobbies - they all take time. Do I love libraries enough to give most of that up? Again, I don't know - and I probably won't, even after Hambone comes.
No wonder I'm so horribly homesick for Wisconsin and my house. My life made sense there! Hambone had a room to sleep in, and I even knew where he/she would go to daycare. I'm just fretful. Everyone tells me this will work out fine - my question is, how? Until someone can tell me that, I'm allowed to worry.
In the news: Clinton had a great interview on Fresh Air this week. And yes, 9 people got shot at the big Detroit fireworks show. Fun, huh? I guess NFL officials were here scoping out the setup for the 2006 SuperBowl.
I'm alive! You have no idea how nice it is to be me again.
I'm going to bed now, but it's because I'm tired after a fairly productive day. Yay! I was in bed last week - that's about all I can say. I think it was a combo of antibiotics knocking me out and Hambone. But today I went to the store and stocked up on groceries. Then I actually made lunch, ate it, did laundry and bills, and drove Jon to the airport. I also found this great NYTimes article about librarians working with Google and Yahoo! to help people find stuff. The wave of the future.
Today was our first true "Kiss-n-Fly" experience. I took Jon straight to his terminal, hauled his suitcase out of the trunk, said "see you Thursday!" and we were done. No bus, no long drive to another city far away, no long-term parking to pay for. Kind of cool, actually. He's at training in PA for project management or some such corporate thing - and he gets to drive the big van. I think that means he's the junior staff member. Hee. I wonder if they'll make him do coffee runs?
Still no DSL - I get to call SBC tomorrow and try to figure out what the problem is. I also need to find the closest Walgreens. What else??? Hm. I've started keeping an ongoing list - necessary because my memory is shot to hell lately. Again, blame Hambone? It's a mighty good excuse.
Let's just hope the productive streak continues. I have things to do!
You know what I like? Reading Rainbow. The reviews are my favorite. Ah, life without cable... things are less complicated. I miss BBC American, USA, Bravo, and HGTV though.
I've been taking this antibiotic for an infection, and it's starting to make me feel kind of icky. I feel better than when I was sick, but now I have absolutely no appetite and have to try and come up with things to eat that I can imagine swallowing. It's harder than it sounds. Grapefruit, ginger snaps, saltines - the list keeps getting shorter. Good thing I'll be done with this on Friday. I'll ask Jon to make me something when he gets home, so I don't have to smell stuff cooking.
for now, I think I'll nap...
Well, Lake Orion has decided to go with someone else.
I have to admit - I knew it was kind of a long-shot because I don't have much YA experience, but they were really cool, it was a great library, and it would've been a fun job. So I'm disappointed. But, onward and upward...
I think my interview in Milford went ok today. And again, it's a great library, the head of Adult Services seemed really nice, and it sounds like it would be a fun place to work. So keep your fingers crossed for me. There haven't been any new positions posted in a couple of weeks, and it's making me nervous.